Can't Be Tamed

So what is going on with me and Vegas Boy now?  Absolutely nothing.  So far I have successfully resisted the urge to send him an email...which at this point would basically be the equivalent of boiling a rabbit on his stove.  I have GOT to let go of this already.  What makes it a little more difficult is that he gave me a Mother's Day gift.  He got me an iPhone.  He's known I have wanted one for a long time and had long ago mentioned that he wanted to get me one.  So what am I supposed to do now?  I am forcing myself not to read anything into this.  He knows my kids can't really do something special for me for Mother's Day...so he was just being nice.  He can be nice to me and not want to be in a relationship with me--as much as I wish that wasn't the case.  The fucker is impossible to get a read on and subtleties either fly right over his head or he completely ignores him.  And to add insult to injury he's impervious to my charm....the boy just can't be tamed.  I realize now that never stood a chance.  I must have run over a a litter of puppies or something because Karma is being a royal bitch!

I can't let this drag me down again.  How long can I feel like shit over one guy?  A guy that wasn't even technically my boyfriend.  I don't even know what we were.  We were in some sort of grey area where emotions are choked out like hookers in snuff films.  The problem is that I have no idea how to get over a guy that has me this sprung.  I have never been in this position before and I can only hope that going through this has paid back whatever debt I apparently owed to dating society.  It is time to put on a smile because when one door closes, a window opens....or some stupid shit like that.  Shut up.  I'm trying.